Fear, The Flow and Inner Light!

Grab a drink boys and girls before you sit back to read this…it’s a long entry.

Enjoy! xxoo

I love that my life is unpredictable. I never know what’s around the corner. Being psychic helps to a point – but the Universe still loves to surprise me. Even though I am a through and through Taurus – I still like a break from the routine of day to day.

So I can hear the question in your mind – what’s happened Allie? To the outside world – nothing. I’m still single. Still struggling with college (yet doing well – I graduate in May 2011). Still have a son who is my world and a house full of animals that drive me crazy yet I love with all my heart. I’m still broke. In fact – that actually got worse (Even though my alimony is now over – I am happy that any dependence I still had on my ex is now finished).

What HAS happened is an internal/spiritual change. Over the last week or so I really haven’t slept. Oh my eyes are shut and I fall asleep immediately – but in my dreams I’m doing an enormous amount of traveling and visiting. Most places I have visited feel like a distant memory. If I try hard enough I can get the feelings back from the details are foggy at best.

The biggest thing is that I’ve been spending a lot of time with Rick during my dream time. His name is actually Richard – but most call him Rick. And yes – that is his actual name and he is around and about making his mark on the world. Physically he’s about 17 years older than I – soul wise we’re the same. He’s also friends with Todd. Rick actually sent me to Todd but I didn’t get that Rick was important until recently.

You see I had a song that kept playing in my mind and because of this I had to keep listening to it over and over and over again. I couldn’t get enough of it. I realized (it was a duh moment) that this was a message – but about/from who I couldn’t figure out.

The song was “Away in Silence” by Creed:


You walked away in silence
You walked away to breathe
Stopped and turned around to say goodbye to me
I’m pleading as your leaving I’m begging you stay
I’m not the man I used to be, I’ve changed
I’m not the man I used to be, I’ve changed

Don’t give up on us, don’t give up on love
Don’t give up on us, don’t give up on love
If my life is the price, then my life it will cost
Now that I’m picking up the pieces see the pain that I have caused
It’s hard to believe in someone you thought was lost
Don’t give up on us, don’t give up on love
Don’t you walk away in silence…

In tears you counted reasons
Tears covered you it seemed
Face down screaming “God help me please”
I’m pleading as your leaving; I’m begging you to stay
I’m not the man I used to be, I’ve changed
I’m not the man I used to be, I’ve changed

Don’t give up on us, don’t give up on love
Don’t give up on us, don’t give up on love
If my life is the price, then my life it will cost
It will cost my life
Now that I’m picking up the pieces see the pain that I have caused
It’s hard to believe in someone you thought was lost
Don’t give up on us, don’t give up on love
Don’t you walk away in silence
Please come back to me
Don’t you walk away in silence
I’m not the man I used to be!

Well I pray that tomorrow you’ll be home
We can rebuild and forever we can go on
Go on, and go on
We can go on, well I pray that tomorrow you’ll be home
Look at horizons and let the light bring you home, bring you home

Don’t give up on us, don’t give up on love
Don’t give up on us, don’t give up on love
If my life is the price, then my life it will cost
Now that I’m picking up the pieces see the pain that I have caused
It’s hard to believe in someone you thought was lost
Don’t give up on us, don’t give up on love
Don’t walk away in silence
Please don’t walk away
Don’t you walk away in silence
I’m not the man I used to be!

I of course thought – who in the world could this have been? It’s not in this life cause I’ve never walked away in silence before — I always had something to say -lol.

So I asked my guides to show me who the song was trying to give a message for — I closed my eyes, put it on and Rick’s face appeared. As soon as that happened I didn’t have the drive to listen to it – I got the message. I also understand that it’s a message basically from our last past life together. He must have really ticked me off – lol.

Anyways – Rick and I have been traveling to many places in our dimension and others. With each encounter with other souls that we share the light the shines within and through us expands. My expanding light has opened some doors of action that I must step through. The light has also expanded my psychic, healing and manifestation gifts tenfold. I thought I had to be careful before about what I thought about – now it is crucial.

Although it is more crucial – it is actually easier to do. The light has shed any pessimistic views that I may have harbored. It’s working on pushing away the fear I have of public speaking. What is before me will require me to put myself out there on the public stage.

The Movement will involve much more than spreading light, love and peace. It will involve awareness. Without awareness a soul cannot grow – without growth a soul’s light will dim. Myself and a host of others will be making people aware of what is really out there and what is truly within each of us.

I know how to get things rolling – I have to finish DREAMERS and my editing of a novel. The novel is not mine – not my story. It’s about a wonderful couple, death, reincarnation, the Invisible World and a eternal love. I’m not done reading through it yet. My guides had me take a break so that this soul growth could occur. It happened – so now I will continue to read this evening. As soon as I am allowed to tell you more about the story I will. One thing I can promise you is that you will LOVE IT!

My creativity gets me to the next step in a dozen areas; money, love, career, soul path and much more!

One thing that clicked during this growth is stepping into The Flow. It’s one thing to understand it, another to recognize it and it’s critical that you feel it. That is the step I was missing – I wasn’t FEELING THE FLOW. And that dear readers, only clicked in this morning. Let me tell you how…

My youngest sister has a great life. No she’s not rich or famous – but she’s happy. She has a fabo husband, 2 great kids, a house and a job she likes. Life isn’t perfect – but she’s happy. She’s happy because she followed the flow.

Many moons ago she had a crush in a guy. She had this crush ever since grade school. When she was in college they met up and he asked her out. The weekend he wanted to take her out was when her BFF was having a party for the people in her bridal party. See her BFF’s soon to be hubby spent some time in the UK and his mates were coming to the US to be in the wedding.

My sis and her crush walk into a bar where everyone was supposed to meet (her and the crush were to continue their date after this meet and greet) and she took one look at her future hubby and said WOW. Turned to her forever crush and said good-bye, the date is over. She recognized the flow immediately and went with it. About a year later she imported him and they got married. It’s been good for her ever since.


And for her to jump into this flow took a huge act of faith on her behalf. Trust me on this one. She overcame a huge fear and jumped into the flow. Or you could say because she jumped into the flow she overcame her fear. I feel both happened simultaneously.

Now my other sister just jumped into the flow. In order to jump into this flow she had to overcome her fear of well – fear. Horror anything just didn’t sit well with her. She had an inkling she should do something – and she did – and it worked. Although her trip into the flow just started – I’m pretty confident of the outcome.

So for me and the flow I had to overcome a fear as well — my fear was to be successful. I know – sounds silly doesn’t it? But if I am successful than I’m in the public eye. If I’m in the public eye than everything changes. No longer can I be the hobo with the holey shoes and sweatpants. No longer can I be a hermit and sit in my house when I’m not in school. I’ll actually have to get out there and talk to people. Yep – another fear – talking to people I do not know. Put me in a room with no one I know and it’s not good. If I am successful – then I will have to do this all the time. It’s funny though this stupid fear of not talking to people I do not know – cause I really like to socialize.

Now that I can feel the flow and I understand my fears – I can step into it with confidence. Everything as I know it is about to change.

With this change I know that I will have to put grad school on the back burner. Way on the back burner. I doubt if it will ever be a reality – at least in this life. I’m not meant to help one person at a time – but hundreds of people at a time.

Are you ready to find your flow? If so….

1) Sit and have a heart to heart talk with your fears. What frightens you?

2) Once you have #1 firmly under your belt – make a plan of action on how to overcome your fears.

3) As you set your plans in action to overcome your fears – your flow will appear.

4) Step into the flow and DO NOT fight the current.

5) Enjoy!

The ability to step into the flow happens to all of us at a variety of times throughout our lives. It’s our fear that blocks us from seeing or sensing that flow. 

In my flow there’s Rick – he plays an important role – and so does Todd. Bill and Ted are also there along with Will and Vincent. It’s going to be a hell of a ride.

The increased activity with me and my soul growth is the exact same thing that is happening to you. We are all going through an accelerate growth stage and will continue to do so until Dec 12 2012 (yes I know the “big date” is 12/21/12 but our physical bodies will 10 days to rest because of our accelerated growth and there strain on our bodies) . Our sleep will be scattered – our dream visits increased. Our gifts expanding – new ones opening up. This isn’t the time to fight the changes. You are all needed. For what? You’ll know. You’ll know exactly why you are needed when you have to know. Your soul has been waiting a long time for this shift to happen. Allow what is needed to occur. People will drop from your life – many who you’ve loved  – many who you considered a good friend, They have their path. You have your path. No longer will the paths intertwine.

I’m going to be scheduling a conference call about The Movement with anyone that is interested. If you are interested – or if you know someone who is – email me. Or if you would rather sit back and join the call anonymously – watch this space for more information.

You know – my guides just told me to have “The Flow” reading available on my site. Stay tuned for that.

Don’t forget I’ll be at the Universal Light Expo (http://www.universeexpo.com/) next weekend – Oct 9 & 10 in Columbus. I’ll be in booth 894 and my talk – Unleashing Your Sexual Energy will be on Sunday at 11 – 11:50 am. Please stop by.

Need to go pick up my son! Will try to write another entry this weekend.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie 🙂

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