Grab a drink and maybe a snack — this one is long…
Wow – change is in the air – can you feel it? I know can! I have been a busy person for the last several weeks — I think that this is the longest I’ve ever gone without posting. Sorry about that! I’ll try to do better but I can’t promise anything:)
For those of you born in the 60’s or early 70’s – can you feel the Saturn Uranus Opposition just kicking your tush? The tug away between structure and breaking free is especially intense for those in their late 30’s and 40’s. The dates of the tug a war are: Nov 4, 2008 – Feb 5, 2009 – Sept 15, 2009 – Apr 26, 2010 and July 26, 2010. With each occurrence pushing us closer to following our soul’s path. This isn’t much of a choice here – things will happen around you to push you. I talked about this in Monday’s podcast — no wonder I can’t sleep:) Falling asleep isn’t the problem – the constant dreams are starting to be.
Even when I ask for a break – I’m not getting it. This always means some major is coming up. My dreams – what I can remember of them (I’m honestly trying to forget so I can sleep which I think is making it worse) have either Bill, Ted or my son in them. Every night all 3 show up – normally in different dream visits – although Bill and Ted do show up occasionally. The last couple of days ex #2 has been showing back up. I think that I’m being pulled in his dreams. They all involve me and him getting back together – but not as a married couple. This last one he moves back into the house- but that’s only because he has no where else to go. I move my office into my room so he can have the office. I remember this really ill feeling I had in my stomach at the thought of him living here. I woke myself up. Ex #1 showed up last week several times. The dream visits with him would dip into the romantic/sexual aspect. After the last dream visit last week – I put up my protection so that he would not get back in. I told my guides in no uncertain terms that I wasn’t heading back into ex #2 dreams either. I have no idea why either one of them would be bothering me now. Maybe they drank out of the same water source?
Bill has been everywhere I looked. No matter what I’ve been doing – he pops into my mind. Or I see a picture that reminds me of him. With Bill, I can feel him figuring things out between us. In past dreams he has said that he got it – the connection – but that over thinking mind of his is still trying to put every piece in its place. Plus his soul and his guides are trying to send him down the correct path without him thinking it to death. On top of all this his emotions are all over the board. He’s very sensitive. I feel sorry for anyone who pisses him off right now.
I have some good news to tell you in 2 weeks. But I can’t tell you till then :):)
In other news — I’m going back to college. I know – what a shocker? But it’s true. When I left in 1996 I was finishing my junior year in Bus Admin. Going back I may be a senior to start – but now my major is Psychology. After graduation – Masters in Marriage & Family Counseling — and if that much schooling hasn’t killed me – Doctorate in Sexual Health. Yes – I’m going to be a sex therapist. That clicked in last week. Since then – things have been going much better. Not fabo – but better. Told me ex #2 – he laughed at me – ass hole. But that’s ok – it’ll just push me harder to prove him wrong. So during the day I’ll home school my son – at night – college. Somewhere in there I’ll fit in homework, housework and oh yeah – work. I opted out of the traditional foreign langue requirement and am instead taking Sign Language. The hearing impaired have sexual and marriage problems too – I bet it can get frustrating to go to a hearing person’s therapy.
My son thought it was great that I’m going back to school. He is going to love to see his mom do homework:) I’ll be back up at The University of Akron. My son did have a mini cow and worry that I wouldn’t be writing scripts any longer. I told him – never you fear – I have to write like you have to play with your Hot Wheels. He liked that idea. Besides – just got a new idea for a TV show I have to write:) But 1st I have to finish a couple of other rewrites.
This is the 3rd day in a row that I’ve forced myself to go on Keen🙂 I figure if I keep forcing, it’ll be a habit. If anyone wants some free minutes – email me.
I have this wonderful stone spirit called Wulfenite. It’s not as flashy as the rest of my stones, so it normally doesn’t get a lot of attention (since I overlook it). But lately it’s been calling out. What this stone promotes is the acceptance of the existence of the negative aspects that exist in this crazy -mixed-up world in order to allow one to recognize issues and not allow roadblock to stop or slow down progress. It also helps on to continue on in spite of potential limitations. And yes – it came to my attention last week. So it’s no surprise that I’m going back to school. This little gem also allows one to transition between the physical plane to the psychic and astral planes with a quickness. It’s been wanting to go with me into my bedroom – but I don’t sleep as it is. I’m afraid to see how much dreaming I’ll do with it. But I may try — just to see. In fact, I just went and put in my bedroom.
What else can this puppy do? It can help to bring forth the knowledge and skills needed for white magic. It promotes contact with the spiritual world in the form one manifests; to allow the attunement to those of ancient civilizations (in my case – Atlantis), to those of the near distant past or those of future worlds. It makes a strong connection and attunement to higher dimensions. It also stimulates a bonding between souls who are in the Earth plane and have agreed to meet again during this life time (hear me Bill, Ted, Will and Vincent)?
My guides also had me change my 3 stone pendant. Now it has Herkimer Diamond, Tektite and Moldavite. Now with the HD – I have 2 HD that were joined at one time. A larger one and then a smaller one that attached to the side. The larger one is for Bill – the smaller one is mine. Instead of putting the one that is mine in the pendant – my guides told me to put Bill’s in. The HD has a ton of helpful properties. But the jest of it is: helps one to begin again in this lifetime,,, assists one in clearing the body-mind system of unconscious fears and repressions, allowing for total relaxation and expansion of the life energy. .. known as a stone of attunement…. stimulates clairvoyant and clairaudient abilities…it also facilitates and strengthens telepathic connections. What else is nice about this stone is that you can store information into this stone before you give it to another. Maybe I’m supposed to wear it now so that it stores my energy in it before I give it to Bill?
Tektite has a ton of helpful attributes as well. It’s rather cool that it is from outer space:) It is said to a charm of great power, as well as bring wealth and fertility to it’s owner. It provides one with encouragement to gather knowledge. It helps to sweep away any lasting impressions of undesirable experiences and holds onto lasting impressions of desirable experiences. Tektite balances the feminine and masculine properties of ones character. It also acts to strengthen ones energy field and to provide for increased contact during daily activities. It accelerates thought transmissions within the physical realm and between the physical realm and the location of origination of the stone. Using tektite can also draw one to another, or another to one, due to information provided during transmissions, or due to an attraction which is recognized by others who have the same transmission frequencies aligned in the ethereal body (me, Bill, Ted, Will and Vincent again).
Now Moldavite is a form of tektite as it is also from
space. But this is considered a “gem quality” stone of ET origin. This is a powerful stone – one full of energy and purpose. It stimulates cooperation with those of ET’s origin with those on Earth. It carries one beyond the physcial reality to a home that has long been forgotten – absent from the conscious mind – as it provides the visions of eternality and the energy to translate the visions into reality. It facilities strong, clear, and direct interdimensional interconnected-mess between ones consciousness and the higher planes of light. It expands the scope of vibrational energy/dimensions which one can approach, while allowing an easier path to those dimensions one has already been to. One will see more clearly and will see with an expansion of vision. it works well with the third-eye, throat charka and the crown chakra.
I have no idea what my guides have planned for me with this stone combination. But my intuition is telling me it’s about connecting with Bill in the physical realm. He was the key that unlocked all of this – the dreams, soul mates, OBE, soul clusters – the whole kit and caboodle. He’s the reason I started this blog. To be able to sit down and talk to him about everything would be a dream come true. I don’t want anything from him but a nice long conversation. I’m just dying to compare notes:)
My mother almost died the other day – or should I say she should of died. But my grams had her back. She was traveling along 77 in Akron – during a busy time – when the SUV in front of her hit something – it flew into the air and scooped up under her car. She smelled something burning and was able to pull over to the right (this is a section of the highway where the on/off ramps are too short and normally cars are on it moving at a high speed). She tried to go somewhere – but the smell of tire rubber was too great. An hour later a tow truck picked up the car. Fast forward – the mechanic calls her in (my sister takes her to the garage)…he shows her what went under her car – a tire wedge that truckers use behind their wheels when they are pulled over or stopped for the night. It flew under her car and wedged itself in-between my mom’s front driver’s side tired and the tire well. What SHOULD of happened is the car would of stopped immediately (when she was going 65), flipped up in the air and rolled a few times. This would have caused the heavy traffic behind her to slam into her – causing more death and injury. It costs her $12.50 to get her car fixed. It wasn’t her time to die. For that I am very grateful.
I think I MAY have figured out what type if disorder effects my son. It’s called Sensory Integration Disorder (http://www.spdfoundation.net/).
“SPD can affect people in only one sense–for example, just touch or just sight or just movement–or in multiple senses. One person with SPD may over-respond to sensation and find clothing, physical contact, light, sound, food, or other sensory input to be unbearable. Another might under-respond and show little or no reaction to stimulation, even pain or extreme hot and cold. In children whose sensory processing of messages from the muscles and joints is impaired, posture and motor skills can be affected. These are the “floppy babies” who worry new parents and the kids who get called “klutz” and “spaz” on the playground. Still other children exhibit an appetite for sensation that is in perpetual overdrive. These kids often are misdiagnosed – and inappropriately medicated – for ADHD.
SPD is most commonly diagnosed in children, but people who reach adulthood without treatment also experience symptoms and continue to be affected by their inability to accurately and appropriately interpret sensory messages.
These “sensational adults” may have difficulty performing routines and activities involved in work, close relationships, and recreation. Because adults with SPD have struggled for most of their lives, they may also experience depression, underachievement, social isolation, and/or other secondary effects.
Sadly, misdiagnosis is common because many health care professionals are not trained to recognize sensory issues. The SPD Foundation is dedicated to researching these issues, educating the public and professionals about their symptoms and treatment, and advocating for those who live with Sensory Processing Disorder and sensory challenges associated with other conditions.”
My kid is in overdirve 24/7 and has been misdiagnosised with ADHD. But – of course – I cannot find anyone in my area who I can take him to. The place in Stow Ohio doesn’t exist any more and all other places are 1 1/2 hrs. + away. So I don’t know what in the heck I’m going to do – but I have to do something.
I found this great place called: Day Spa For The Mind. From their site:
“Day Spa for the Mind is an online space where you can relax, unwind, and clear your mind to make room for positive change in your life. We all have busy lives and the thought of meditation or personal development, even though we all know the benefits, can seem all too daunting.
Day Spa for the Mind combines meditation techniques, hypnotherapy and guided visualization to help relieve stress, create deep relaxation and focus your mind towards attracting wealth, love, creativity, motivation, and inner peace.”
I opened an account. Thus far I really like it. Try out their 10 min sample and see for yourself.
I’m sure I have typos in this entry – I’m tired. If you want, point them out, just don’t be too rude about it please:)
For those of you that I owe email to – I know I do. I’m doing the best I can. I’m hoping to be caught up by the time I hit 42.
What else is happening — I know there’s more – but right now I’m brain dead so I think I’ll stop and get some shut-eye.